truth: dwele

i think the theme of today is the 'truth'

and i look at this white baller band infront of me, that says TRUTH.
my post about my retreat is at http://www.xanga.com/jonojonojonojono


so she msgs ppl today (well at least to 1 person) and tells them that i have someone new, and that im together with this person now. so this person msgs me to get the facts straight and asks me, and im like..WHAT? no,... and then they tell me that she told them all of this, and she thinks we're together, and that i got over her so quickly... blah blah blah

i confront her and leave her a msg saying ' i thot you were the one that was always about not assuming things and not jumping to conclusions, and not involving people that shouldnt know our business'

she comes back at me and says like how she did no such thing, and she completely denied it all, and then goes to the person she told and gets mad at them for telling me. wow. anyway, so after denying all of that, she leaves me with a msg that says i can do whatever i want, andit's none of her business, and there's nothing she can do about anything i choose to do, and all she's gonna do is pray and whatnot. then she tries to guilt trip me, saying we;'ve been togethjer for almost 2 years, yet i can just set it all aside, move on, and find someone else within 2 months.. less than 2 months... then she adds to the guilt by asking me if she wasnt even worth anything to me, for me to 'seemingly so easily move on' and whatever.

honestly, i feel like i should tell her the truth. tell her that the last few months of the relationship were sooo hard on me, that i already started to lose my feelings for her, and i didnt love her as much, and so this was before the break up, so really it's been longer than the 2 months she thinks it is
like im scared cause if i tell her this truth, it'll devastate her and really cause her to flip out, but if not, then she might still hold on to those hopes and whatnot, this might give a straight answer to help the healing? should i tell her? im thinking yeah, she deserves the hear the truth... it'll be so hard telling her and even harder for her to hear it....

anyway, i dont know what im gonna do...

my post about my retreat is at http://www.xanga.com/jonojonojonojono